being a mom

I sucked in many ways as a mom.  I know because my daughters have pointed it out on occasion (proving karma is a b****) There are brutishly honest like their momma. I have carried this guilt for many years and it has dug away at my very soul.  Recently, I lost a friend of mine.  She had a beautiful spirit and died of a horrible disease that destroyed her brain.

My eldest daughter who lives two hours away called me.  She was at a loss for words and just kept repeating I am sorry and I love you.

My youngest attended the funeral with me. She held my hand as I walked up to the casket and said my good-byes.

 

Maybe I didn’t suck so badly after all.

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